[Syla Delaney]

feeling a bit self loathing, so I wound up listening to some marina and the diamonds on repeat

"I'm gonna live, I'm gonna fly. I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna die."

Its really really hard to just tough it out all the time and be supremely optimistic and "Oh, I'll just try harder next time!" Starting to feel like I'm not letting myself get frustrated, angry, or anything else. That's a pretty old problem though. The more worrying thing is the slow, but definitely steady feeling of isolation from the people who actually care about me as I'm chasing after whatever it is I'm going after.

Perhaps having a life goal of never needing anyone else was a poorly thought out one now that I'm trying to make/sustain meaningful relationships with other people.

"I know exactly what I want and who I want to be. I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine. I'm now becoming my own self fulfilled prophecy."

[anxious ghost]

this is amazing!

[Syla Delaney]

Thank you!

[~Tornado~]

I'm sorry you're not really liking yourself right now I totally understand how that is
Marina is such a nice therapy

And wow I'm really into this piece it has a sort of power to it the stance matches how the wings seem to thrust outwards and it's just a dynamic and cool piece!

[Syla Delaney]

Thank you, I appreciate it!